WHERE I WANT TO BE

Svetlana

SVETLANA
The man is utterly mad, Anatoly - you're playing a lunatic!

ANATOLY
That's the problem. He's a brilliant lunatic. You can't tell which way he'll jump or why. When he's playing chess or when he throws a fit - he's impossible to analyse; you can't dissect him, you canít predict him - which of course means he's not a lunatic at all.

MOLOKOV
WHAT WE'VE JUST SEEN'S A PATHETIC DISPLAY
FROM A MAN WHO'S BEGINNING TO CRACK
HE'S AFRAID - I'VE SEEN AMERICANS DO THIS BEFORE
WE'RE ON THE RIGHT TRACK!

ANATOLY
NONSENSE!
WHY DO MY SECONDS ALWAYS WANT TO BELIEVE
THIRD-RATE PROPAGANDA?

MOLOKOV
MY FRIEND - PLEASE RELAX; WE'RE ALL ON YOUR SIDE
YOU KNOW HOW YOU NEED US

ANATOLY
I DON'T NEED MY ARMY OF SO-CALLED 'ADVISORS'
AND HELPERS TO TELL ME
THE MAN WHO'S REVITALISED CHESS SINGLE-HANDED
IS MORE OR LESS OUT OF HIS BRAIN
WHEN IT'S VERY CLEAR HE'S SANE

MOLOKOV
LISTEN, WE DON'T UNDERESTIMATE TRUMPER
WE WON'T GET CAUGHT IN THAT TRAP
AFTER ALL, WINNING OR LOSING REFLECTS ON US ALL -

ANATOLY
OH DON'T GIVE ME THAT CRAP!
I WIN - NO ONE ELSE DOES
AND I TAKE THE RAP IF I LOSE

MOLOKOV
IT'S NOT QUITE THAT SIMPLE
THE WHOLE WORLD'S TUNED IN
WE'RE ON DISPLAY
WE'RE NOT MERELY SPORTSMEN -

ANATOLY
OH PLEASE DON'T START SPOUTING THAT OLD PARTY LINE
YES I KNOW IT'S YOUR JOB BUT
YOU BETTER STOP PULLING SUCH GAMES PRETTY QUICK
OR YOU'RE SAVING THIS MATCH AND YOUR SKIN
THAT IS IF YOU WANT TO WIN!

SVETLANA
I don't want to win. Not if it does this to you - to us.

ANATOLY (almost shouting)
Does what to me - to us?

SVETLANA
You can't see?

ANATOLY
I'm sorry. But it would be madness to let twenty years of work be destroyed at the final hurdle because of this megalomaniac's antics.

SVETLANA
And five years marriage -

ANATOLY
It will all be fine once this match is over. I promise.

SVETLANA
If we still have a marriage?

MOLOKOV
If we still have a match!

ANATOLY (to Molokov)
Well, make sure we do! What the hell else do you have to do?
Silly question -

MOLOKOV
You're becoming as crazy as Trumper. Anatoly, relax. Do your job - I'll do mine. Svetlana -

(Molokov and Svetlana leave)

Anatoly ANATOLY
WHO NEEDS A DREAM?
WHO NEEDS AMBITION?
WHO'D BE THE FOOL
IN MY POSITION?
ONCE I HAD DREAMS
NOW THEY'RE OBSESSIONS
HOPES BECOME NEEDS
LOVERS POSSESSIONS

THEN THEY MOVE IN
OH SO DISCREETLY
SLOWLY AT FIRST
SMILING TOO SWEETLY
I OPENED DOORS
THEY WALKED RIGHT THROUGH THEM
CALLED ME THEIR FRIEND
I HARDLY KNEW THEM

NOW I'M WHERE I WANT TO BE AND WHO I WANT TO BE AND DOING WHAT I ALWAYS SAID I WOULD AND YET I FEEL I HAVEN'T WON AT ALL
RUNNING FOR MY LIFE AND NEVER LOOKING BACK IN CASE THERE'S SOMEONE RIGHT BEHIND TO SHOOT ME DOWN AND SAY HE ALWAYS KNEW I'D FALL

WHEN THE CRAZY WHEEL SLOWS DOWN
WHERE WILL I BE? BACK WHERE I STARTED
DON'T GET ME WRONG
I'M NOT COMPLAINING
TIMES HAVE BEEN GOOD
FAST, ENTERTAINING
BUT WHAT'S THE POINT?
IF I'M CONCEALING
MOST OF MY THOUGHTS
ALL OF MY FEELINGS

NOW I'M...
(Various well-attired male guests emerge from their hotel rooms)

ANATOLY & MEN
..WHERE I WANT TO BE AND WHO I WANT TO BE AND DOING WHAT I ALWAYS SAID I WOULD AND YET I FEEL I HAVEN'T WON AT ALL
RUNNING FOR MY LIFE AND NEVER LOOKING BACK IN CASE THERE'S SOMEONE RIGHT BEHIND TO SHOOT ME DOWN AND SAY HE ALWAYS KNEW I'D FALL

ANATOLY
WHEN THE CRAZY WHEEL SLOWS DOWN
WHERE WILL I BE?
BACK WHERE I STARTED.